CHAPTER ONE
“Funny
really, getting this,” the old lady commented reflectively. “I never had much time for royalty. Always thought they were a waste of money.”
Clutched
between her twisted fingers she held the royal telegram, crushed into a ball
like so much waste paper. It didn’t seem
to mean much to her, living long enough to claim her prize.
Stella
watched her uncomfortably, wondering how coherent she could expect her to
be. She was Stella’s Great Aunt Bess,
the sister to whom her grandmother had not spoken since the first world war.
Although
they had never met before, she knew the story well. Their quarrel had been talked about
frequently and with bitterness by Stella’s grandmother, who had been engaged,
at the age of sixteen, to a handsome sailor.
She had loved him dearly, but her own sister had set out to destroy the
romance. Bess had met him first, had
been jealous when he transferred his affections to Edith, and her jealousy had
festered as their wedding plans took form.
So she had lied, had told him Edith had been unfaithful, and he had
accepted her story. Since then, the two
sisters had had no contact with each other.
“So
you’re Mary’s girl, are you?” Bess said
now.
Stella
nodded.
“That’s
right,” she replied. “I’m Stella
MacKenzie.”
“Edie’s
granddaughter,” she murmured thoughtfully.
Seeing
her now, it was hard to believe that she had ever been young, had ever been
susceptible to the yearnings and schemes of a teenage girl. She had become a grim parody of a human
being, shrunken and withered by the common enemy of good and bad alike.
Stella’s
uneasiness on first accepting her invitation faded a little when she heard her
cracked voice, saw the way arthritis twisted her limbs. There are few of us who do not feel the
desire to protect and cosset the very old, to absolve them of past sins as
though they had been committed in another lifetime.
Stella
had prepared for this visit with a blend of apprehension and curiosity; she wanted to meet the woman she had heard so
much about, the woman of whom her own mother had recently remarked: ‘even Jesus doesn’t want her; that’s why she’s still alive.’
She
wanted to hear her side of the story, for she had no doubt that it was that
which the old woman intended to tell her.
If someone so very ancient felt the need, in her twilight days, to ease
her conscience, Stella felt it would be wrong to refuse her.
She
still lived alone, tending to her own needs with the aid of a home help two
mornings a week, which aroused Stella’s grudging admiration. She had not expected everything to be so
modern and functional. She was expecting
her environment to be as archaic as the lady herself, but that assumption was
to do her an injustice, for she had made the place easy to manage. There was a deep red fitted carpet with a
small pattern of black woven into it; the three piece suite had removable
covers which went into the washing machine and the fire was one of the modern,
coal effect gas models.
Her
only visible concession to the past was a massive walnut sideboard which stood
against one wall, laden with greetings cards of various shapes and sizes which
obscured the few photographs in their silver frames.
She
sat in a high backed armchair beside the fire and looked at Stella expectantly,
her dark eyes wandering over her as though searching for some hint of
familiarity, while Stella tried to think of something to say to her, something
that
would not display her
pre-conceived notions about her. But she
could not seem to project her thoughts beyond the fact that this woman was born
into this world one hundred years ago today.
Inevitably,
she could do nothing but wait for Bess to speak. There was no delicate way to prompt the
regrets Stella was sure she wished to voice, and she felt like a benevolent
arbitrator, awaiting a confession. She
believed that her aunt was suffering an angry conscience as death drew near for
her, and she had come prepared to accept a belated apology on her grandmother’s
behalf. Her complacent beliefs were
shattered when Bess said:
“I
want to tell you about Rose.”
Stella
looked as startled as she felt, and she could feel the anger mounting within
her. She realised the old woman had no
intention of trying to atone for the past.
That had never been her purpose in bringing Stella to her home, and she
had never pretended that it was. Stella
felt embarrassed by her own folly and assumptions. And she had absolutely no idea who Rose might
be.
The
old woman raised an eyebrow sceptically, as though she had read Stella’s
thoughts, and a slow smile crept over her mouth, revealing a subtle ghost of
the beauty that had once been hers. She
had small, even features and large, almost black eyes, even now only slightly
faded. Her hair was almost entirely
white, but there were streaks of black still visible beneath. She bore no resemblance whatsoever to
Stella’s grandmother.
Bess
shifted in her armchair, seeming to settle herself more comfortably, and Stella
was afraid she was getting ready for a long story. She glanced at the clock on the mantelpiece,
hoping she wouldn’t take too long about it.
But, restless though she was, she couldn’t quite believe she was meeting
her at last.
Her
reference to someone Stella had never heard of made her doubt that she really
knew who her great niece was, and she seemed to read that doubt in her face.
“You
needn’t look at me like that, Miss,” she snapped. “I suppose you thought I was too senile to
understand, did you?” She sighed
softly. “That’s what most people think
when you get to my age. They treat you
like some sort of backward child. You’ll
find out one day.”
Stella’s
grandmother had always said that her sister had a tongue that could cut
glass. It was clear that time had failed
to mellow Great Aunt Bess.
“Edie’s
granddaughter,” she repeated. “You don’t
look like her. Not a bit.”
“I’ve
been told I resemble my father.”
She
shrugged.
“Never
met him,” she said. “Never met your
mother, either.”
Stella
felt resentment gathering once more. She
was prepared to be forgiving, but if her aunt wanted to be belligerent about
the quarrel, she saw no reason why she shouldn’t have her say.
“I
know about the feud between you and my grandmother,” she replied. “From what I’ve heard, you played no small
part in it.”
She
smiled, but it was a menacing smile that made Stella wish she hadn’t spoken.
“Is
that what you heard?” Bess said, then swung
away from the subject with: “Mary must
have been knocking on a bit when she had you.”
“She
was in her forties,” she replied stiffly.
“I’m
glad you don’t look like Edith. I
wouldn’t have liked that. I’ve kept my
secret for seventy-five years. I don’t
think I could tell it to anyone who reminded me of Edie.”
“I
can’t believe you still hate my grandmother,” Stella protested.
“I’m
not surprised you don’t know about Rose,” Bess went on, ignoring her. “That stuck-up bigot Edie married thought he
was too good for the likes of us. He
wouldn’t have let her mention Rose.” She
leaned forward suddenly and peered into Stella’s face. “Is he dead?”
She demanded sharply. “Reg, I
mean.”
“Yes,
he is. He died about twenty years ago,
actually.”
“Good.”
Stella
could feel the shock taking shape on her face.
She had never met anyone who would say such a thing about the dead, no
matter how much they had disliked them.
“I
know you didn’t get on with him,” she
said defensively. “But he was my
grandfather.”
“That’s
your misfortune, dear.” She relaxed back
in her seat. “I could tell you a thing
or two about Mr. High-and-Mighty Parrish!”
Stella
bit down on her animosity. She told
herself firmly that her aunt was an old lady, that she must try to be tolerant.
“Don’t
take it personally, love,” Bess said.
“I’ve got things to say, a story to tell, and I’ve already had thirty
years more than the Bible allows.”
She
leaned forward once more, wincing with the arthritic pain in her spine, and her
eyes glowed with an intensity that convinced Stella to hear her out. “It’s only fair, you see,” she went on. “I’ve done what Rose wanted. I’ve kept my promise, all my life I’ve kept it. But I won’t take the truth to the grave with
me.”
Stella
was growing impatient with her cryptic references to someone she knew nothing
about.
“But
who is Rose?” She demanded.
“Rose
was my sister,” Bess answered quietly.
“The eldest of the lot of us;
well, all of us that survived, that is.
There were many before her, and a few after her, but they never lived
long enough to notice.”
“Your
sister?” Stella repeated stupidly. “There was another sister? I always thought you were the eldest.”
She
shook her head slowly, her eyes misting with fleeting sorrow.
“I
often wondered whether you and your mother were ever told anything about
her. That’s why I asked you here, to
tell you all about it.”
Stella
nodded her agreement, somewhat reluctantly.
There didn’t seem to be anything else she could do. The old woman had aroused her curiosity and
she didn’t want to risk offending her and have to go away without ever knowing
what she had to say.
“Fifteen
children my mother brought into the world,” she began, “and there were just the
five of us left. Rose, me, Edith, Billy
and Nina.”
Stella
nodded eagerly, relieved to hear familiar names.
“Billy
was the one who died of pneumonia,” Stella said.
“That’s
right. And it was his death that started
it all.”
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